–From Florida

Dear pastor Knoll,

I know you don’t know me, but I have something to say. I pray you read me in its entirety. First and foremost, please allow me to tell you how honored I feel to have known you. When I see my life, where it was and where I am today, it amazes me how much having known you has to do with being here today. If that makes sense?!!! I love out Lord Jesus and our Celestial Father and that it’s because of Them and the Holy Spirit that I am healed from homosexuality, drug addiction, 10-year alcoholism, promiscuity, lying, sexual perversion, and many other vile things that were reigning in my heart and reflecting in my life. I know I’m healed because of Them!

But because of your dreams and your books that were sent to me from another sister who never lost hope, and even when I did not respond to the calling back then, I accepted you as our last prophet without any hesitation. Even in my sin Father found me! was my thought. And because of the uniqueness of who you are and of what you represent, I knew that Father really loved me. Because what are the odds of a low life like me to hear from a prophet of God! I found your dreams very hard for me back then, because of how much sin I was involved in. It blinded me. And yet I did recognize you, without an inch of doubt in my heart, that you were who you are.

It would take another 10 years of bad choices and worse decisions to bring me face to face with my Creator. Emptiness, despair, loneliness, self-hate were my companions for many years, my counselors. A lot of mental problems, like depression and suicidal attempts were the product of my self-counseling, of thinking that I knew enough to solve my own problems, ignorant of how much I needed to rely upon the Lord.

Then, in 2020, I started having a stronger feeling that God was calling me for the last time, and right there I started my journey back to Father. It hasn’t been easy, but because of His mercy and grace I stand today. It has been one full of blessings and joy. Never in my life have I had the relationships I have today, whether it be with mom, my daughter, or my sisters, coworkers and in general with the world. It is one of peace. I’m able to be respectful to others, not only because it is the right thing to do, but because first Christ died for them as much as He died for me, and that acknowledgment brings peace to my heart and mind. What I wish for more than anything is to do what’s right in His sight. I also know that there is much more to learn and grow, but if this isn’t a converted heart, then I don’t know what it is.

My daughter, who is 27, single, childless, enjoys spending her Saturdays with me at home, keeping the day of the Lord holy. And even if we don’t know how to keep it perfectly, since we never grew in the SDA faith, in our little home church only the name of God is praised. And all these beauties would not have happened to me if it wasn’t for your dreams. Because of your dreams I found the strength to start the long walk back home to Father!

Brother and Pastor Knoll, if I may say this, and it may not mean much, but if I may say, I would never dare to understand the pains that you and your family have been suffering because of the Truth. But if my story can bring you some type of solace in knowing that it is because of your dreams that my life is where it is today.

Thank you, brother Ernie. Again, it is an honor. And if there’s anything I can do for you or your family, please do not hesitate to ask. My humble apartment is yours as needed, as well as everything else. I’m not sure how I can be of service, but know that my time, person, finances, ALL belong to God and His messengers.

Thank you for your time reading this.

God bless you and your family.

Very respectfully,

Maritza Martínez