I am writing this testimonial to let people know the results of lack of faith. I have struggled with a particular illness for many years. During one particularly low time I cried out to God and He directed me to Ernie's former ministry website. I read the dreams with growing interest. The promise that Jesus was indeed coming made me want to be ready. The hope that the dreams offered helped me through that time. But I also struggle with faith. I would waver between belief and doubt in the truth of Ernie's dreams. I posted an endorsement of Ernie's dreams on my website which I would take down and put back up.

Then in the fall of 2008, I experienced a severe bout of depression. I wrote to Ernie about it and asked him for prayer. Ernie eventually told me that he had been shown me in a dream and that I had been healed. He told me that the conditions of my healing were that I would give my testimony at one of his meetings and that I would write the testimony for posting on his website. To be perfectly honest, I was scared. It was one thing to ask for prayer, but now I was being asked to put my faith on the line. Ernie warned me that Satan would try very hard to prevent me from fulfilling the conditions. I failed the test.

After failing the test, I ran very far from God. I hated Him. I cursed Him. I told Him to leave me alone. I suffered for many months before things began to even out. But God wouldn't leave me alone. Somehow He found me. Somehow He gave me a faith in Him that I had never had before. I know that it is supernatural because it is quite beyond my ability. He brought me back to the Bible and the Spirit of Prophecy and eventually back to Ernie's dreams. I began reading his dreams again and comparing them with the Bible and the Spirit of Prophecy. I still can find no disagreement.

I began to suspect that I would have to pass over the ground again on which I had failed. God brings us to the same test over and over again until we either drive the Spirit away or we pass. But I didn't have within myself the faith to pass this test. Then I began to suspect that God had given me faith because He was about to test me again. I also believe that the reason He has given me this faith and this test at this time is because time is very short and Jesus is indeed coming very soon.

I want those who read this testimony to know that neither God nor Ernie have promised me any reward for writing this. I write this as a warning to others and as, I think, a necessary step in complete repentance. When I read the February 5, 2011 dream, "Justice and Mercy", I was struck by the similarity between Martha and myself. I do not want to be in Martha’s situation. I want God to hear my prayers. If it is God's will, I want to be one of "these who are they." I believe this confession is necessary because not only did I sin against God, but I believe that I helped contribute to Ernie's fall. Ernie felt all alone, and my faith and subsequent healing might have given Ernie the testimony and support he needed to fight Satan's temptations. Ernie has not told me this--this is my belief. I could also have helped establish the faith of many others in the dreams.

As of this time, I am still passing over this ground, but God has sustained me. My faith is not perfect--I still have moments of doubt--but when I cry to God for strength He provides it. The fault lies with me and not with Him. I tell this story so that all may know that God is merciful but also just. He offered me an opportunity, which I spurned. But He has been gracious to bring me back to Him through suffering.